This image was posted in one of the traumatic brain injury groups that I’m a part of. Almost without fail comments on the post were regarding how impossible it would be to give up one’s job. The other options seemed feasible, but no one wanted to give up their career.
I, full of righteousness and delusion, scoffed in my head wondering how that could be a hard choice, you only get one life and health is priority one.
Until it was my turn (almost, in a not really sort of way).
My challenge was different :
What if your husband’s healing required changing your schedule slightly?
It’s hardly comparable to the original challenge. It’s almost a case of being forced to have my cake and eat it too.
I still struggled. I still pouted. I loved my schedule and I love my clientele and that was that. I owe an apology to each person that I questioned in the original post.
I also love my husband and I want to do everything I can to set him up for success. Our lifestyle (random work hours, lots of late nights, meals at 8:30pm) is not suitable for someone recovering from a brain injury. People recovering from brain injuries need a lot of sleep and rest and routine. Our life and my old schedule didn’t allow for much of that and that was okay then. Now it isn’t.
This past week of wrestling with this change has been hard. I now have to limit my evening hours and may have to change my daytime hours depending how his rehab progresses. Instead of working until 7:30 or 8 most days of the week, I’m going to wrap up at 6:30 and concentrate on our little family. While I know I am beyond lucky to have the option of controlling my own schedule and making things work, there’s no debate that this sucks (I tried to find a more elegant word, there isn’t one) for some clients. I can only assure each of them that if I could have this any other way I would. I’d gladly take no brain injury in exchange for working evenings for the rest of my life.
This may be a temporary change, this may be for years. I may have more changes coming, although the neurotic part of me desperately hopes I can keep some type of routine for a few months at least. It’s not ideal and I appreciate everyone that is able to roll with the changes. I am so lucky to have such wonderful clients.
Have a beautiful day.